Grandmother,
in the blister of the sun,
like branches, I was shaded by your presence.
Underneath your boughs
I sheltered from the rain. 
With your wisdom I kindled fires. 

In the twilight of your season 
I gazed at your beauty.
you were like a mighty tree. 
Your hair was gray, but to me 
It shone with the hue of leaves in color—
as they reflect their maturity. 

How often I saw your love descend like falling leaves —
gentle, piles of leaves.
I laughed at the children—
as they leapt into your arms—
to be nestled in your keep. 

Then cruel time took you to task—
you shed leaves no more. 
Your branches still—
they called upon a woodsman—
to lay you to your rest.  

They called upon a craftsman—  
to make splendor of your wood— 
the noblest of the trees bare the rarest grain—
shaped by stage and storm.  

He crafted your acclaim—
lending brilliance to the grain—
ever mindful of your aim—
giving glory to your name. 

 

 

When he drank, 
he drank deep, at the bar at the end of the street.

The bar was his church. 

His visits,
as regular as a Priest attending
Mass. 

At Mothers urging,
I enter Father’s sacred place
and seek him out—
and collect
what remains
of his check. 

Inside the bar, 
the hymns from the jukebox
are hypnotic,
and from ashtray alters,
the sacrificial smoke of tobacco,
ascends to heaven.

From the center of the sanctuary,
comes the clatter
of pool cues
and the clack of ivory thunder
as pool balls collide,
a reminder
that it isn’t really a church
at all,
just a noisy bar. 

The bartender,
a high priest who presides over his flock. 

He provides 
the amber blood
of a different kind of savior, 
and collects the offering,
   the unaffordable tithe,
that once belonged
to children 
and the landlord. 

I interrupt his worship,
rob him of his devotion,
plead for his indulgence 
and convey Mother’s supplication. 

With the reluctance of
an impenitent heart
he hands me 
what remains of his
measly wage
and sends me on my way. 

Afterwards,
he ambles home. 

The next day,
he prays to another God—
Absolution,
for the bruises
laid upon his wife,
and for the guilt
of consequence— 
and he craves a penance
to wash away
his    sin. 

In my kitchen,
I make breakfast for my granddaughter.
A small, wide-eyed girl with long brown braids.
She calls the two bright suns swimming in the frying pan,
flat eggs.
She says, no one makes them better.

I wonder
if she’ll look back one day,
the same way I look back
and remember a small boy
in an adobe house
where the sound of a rooster
greets the morning,
and gentle rays of sunshine
make their way through a small earthen window beside my bed
and gently caress my face.

Then
from under the wooden bed
comes the scuffle of tiny hoofs
as a baby goat scurries out to find his mother.

I rise and venture into the courtyard,
noisy chickens scatter beneath my feet,
angry that I’ve disturbed their breakfast.

Across the courtyard
is grandmother’s house
fashioned in the old way of mud and sticks.

In her kitchen,
she makes me breakfast,
two golden suns swimming in a frying pan,
my flat eggs.
I say, no one made them better.

Life’s journey can be hard,
and aging
has a way of chipping at
my stately
Tower.
Yet, the scent
of green
country air in
the morning, the fragrance
of flowers on Mother’s Day–
then, the stern lines
across my face
soften
and fade away.
I reflect on the restful sounds of lullabies
and baby laughter–
I remember my children
and my children’s children,
playground swings and
fishing trips.
Evan the soft sensation of soapy bubbles
against weathered hands is a pleasant feeling.
And the soft feel of puppy fur against my face
brings comfort to my weary
age-ed mind and cranky disposition
and life is good
again.

In the tale of boy meets girl,
comes the chase, the pursuit, the dance,
the rollercoaster ride,
of does she, will she, maybe. 

Then the coy
hello, goodbye. 

Needing to go,
and wanting to stay. 

Somehow, hoping dreaming wishing,
and the looking into
soft pools,
and longing
for the un-spoken
to be heard. 

The deep delightful banter,
the smiles that ensue.
Exchanges
of not so wondrous words
hoping for a meaning to come thru.   

It’s fun to watch.
So much harder when it’s you. 

Toward the end
I wonder,
will he,
ever get the girl?
Even though he likes her,
does he get her? 

If not,
He’s really,
not for her.